Rose Tyler
02 January 2012 @ 08:02 pm
[The audio feed clicks on in the middle of a sentence. It was meant to be a private recording but flipped over to public in the middle of things.]

--ought to want to leave. There's a whole Universe out there to explore and I've just seen a tiny corner of it. And I do want to see the Universe. I want to see all the planets and all the bits that are goin' to be and the parts that have been. Never wanted that 'fore him, y'know? I was happy with my nice life, my job in the department store and my chips 'til he showed me the whole Universe and I didn't think I'd ever be happy with that nice sorta life again. Now...I realise it's more 'bout him then it is about the travelin'. I think maybe it always has been. He is...the most amazing man.

[She pauses for a long moment, no other sounds to really cue her unintended audience to what's going on.]

I thought I'd lost him. Not lost your child in the grocery store over by the sweets sorta lost. Really lost. Sealed dimensions sorta lost and there were days...I couldn't give up hope because then there was just nothin' but some days it was so hard to hope. They kept tellin' me what the odds of findin' him were. Mum kept sayin' not to get my hopes up but they never understood, my hopes were always sorta pinned up on him so far up that they couldn't get any higher.

[She sighs, pausing to try and gather all of her thoughts so that this voice memoir has some sort of focus instead of just rambling. She's fairly certain her rambling is getting worse in response to spending so much time with the Doctor and his rambling. It's not a bad thing, it's just not a concise thing.]

I've got both of them here and...I am so loved. Each one of 'em would tear apart the Universe for me and I love both of them so much, I think it's goin' to rip me apart inside. I'm just grateful, I guess. Grateful to be able to have both of them here and to spend--to get to have this. It's better than the stars, the universe, the planets and all the time lines together.

[Another sigh, more frustrated than the other.]

None of this is sayin' what I mean but writin' it doesn't help either. M'grateful beyond all sortsa words. Doctors, if I ever disappear and you hear this: don't be disappointed 'cause I didn't want to leave. Sorta both your faults anyhow. I love you both and this has been the best adventure.

[There's a click as she stops the recording and then some shuffling as it flips to video. She's lying on her stomach in her room.]

Thinkin' it's time to paint the flat. Doctor? Up for it?